愣住，头痛。还是。头痛，愣住。

今天小老板叫我进他房间。一开始当然是有的没的问一些我根本不知道也不可能知道的问题。酸来酸去酸完一轮，就叫我要想，effluent lab的未来。要怎样去做大它，要不然就会一直沉沦到末路。改革大计blah blah blah，应该是我做工4年多以来跟我单独讲话最长的一次了。之后，我出去了。

虽然他语气蛮不好，可是我竟然没什么感觉他在骂我。要是以前的我，肯定心很气，很不甘心，可是现在，我反而没什么感觉。他跟我说的改革大计，跟我之前自己想的完全一样，只是，他迟了两年。

错的时间，对的话，结果，就是算了吧。我的心已经没有了。就算他真的是苦口婆心，我也已经没有感觉了。

搞好lab的未来，不见得我自己会有未来。用两三年时间lab上了轨道，又如何？我根本不会在过程中学会新事物。我依然原地踏步。依然在做着一些不会令我增值的事。

真的。TQCC的事，我根本不想做了。心，已死。

愛 - 黃俊郎的黑

初恋...

看了初恋红豆冰，到底有没有感觉呢？我也不懂...可能我太在意整套戏的拍摄手法以及故事编排，以至缺少了感动。还是因为，年龄层不对？

从小暗恋到大，他们并没有真正在一起，但却接了一个吻。故事最后阿牛说到，“到底这算不算是我的初恋？”，很引人深思。茫茫人海当中，他最终也没有跟她碰头，让我想到，初恋，就是这样，到头来都不能够在一起，但却让你留下一生最难忘的回忆。

初恋...初恋......初恋。

Wheel...

Wind...

静下来

真的很希望，从今以后，我不会再有，爱情上的烦恼。希望，就只有开心的。

DLMK22-Friendship

How's my friendship with her? I don't know. Why we'll treat each other as a stranger at school now? Nothing to say to me anymore? I think so... I've chatted with a friend last night about this special friendship. I've told him all of the problems that I'm facing now. He has suggested that I should go and ask her why she suddenly treat me very 'cool'. I said I'm not going to ask her anything about this. The reason is,I don't want she feel like I'm an annoying person. Just let it remain as now. Feel jealous to those guys that can have close contact with her. Me? Cannot consider as a far contact with her,'coz we even don't have any contact. Feel happy 'coz she still replying my message,although it's far shorter than those messages that she replied to me last time. I think the problem is we have no topic to chat anymore. Or maybe she's already bored of chatting with me? Ya... I think it is the reason......

DLMK17-Settled

Finally,I've finished my Grade 5 practical piano exam! Prepared it for almost a year,just for the 20 minutes performance. Now wait for the result lo... Never hope to get Merit or Distinction,as long as I pass,then it's already ok...

After the exam yesterday,I didn't back home immediately. Hang around at KLCC,then received a call from KM. She said she wanna go out with me and wanna tell me something. I told her to come to KLCC. She really came! We watched Vacancy,then went out to the garden outside KLCC to have a walk. We found a place to sit down and we started to chat. We went home around 9pm. I received her message around 10 pm. She said she can't forget me,and won't treat me bad,also said she still likes me... I told her don't think too much. And said we should concentrate on study now. She agreed. Then ok already.

I think everything is ok now. Now I just wanna concentrate on study,and also all my friendship. Love's things,after STPM first lah...

DLMK13-Mooooody..............

My relationship with KM ends finally at last night. My feeling after that 'break up' moment was,down... Lost my mood to do anything... Then I've called some friends to come out and chat. Felt better after that. KM said I didn't put her inside my heart,so she don't wanna continue anymore. I say nothing. That's the end of our story,and I think this might be the last 'The End' of us...

After ending this love relationship,I don't know what will happen to the another friendship. Today at school,until home,I feel that that friendship has already became very very normal. That's what I don't wish to happen. Maybe it's the fate. What I wish is,our friendship can back to the stage last time,a very best friend. Haha... That's very good ar... Go here go there,share each other's secrets,stay with each other when one of us is unhappy,chat happily,and many many more... That's all what I wish,back to that happy period of mine. But those were already past tense... Whatever is gone,it won't come back,anymore.

Hiu......

I'm okay now... Stop thinking of her already... 'Coz I think it's not worth it... What should I do now? Study hard for my STPM... I'm sure at least I can get over 3.0 for my CGPA of STPM... That's my new aim now... Love matters... I don't think I need it now... I have a best friend now... Eng Mei Kuan... A special friend,Kar Muan... And the other buddies... Good care from family... I'm enough with what I have now... My life is happy now... And also,I still have this blog... When I'm in a bad mood,I can just 'write down' my feeling at here,put my bad mood at here and just leave it... Although there's nobody log into my blog,but I'll still continue blogging at here... I feel very thank you to those who read my blog... Thanks for supporting me all the time... I'm fine now... Thank You Very Much... ^-^