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How are you?

Happy?

Or still feeling not well?

Still cannot concentrate on your study?

Still......thinking of him?

friends

Now I only know...

When I really have problem,there won't be anybody besides me.

Friends.

For so many years,I be friend with all of them.

I did everything that I can for them.

But when I have problem,they are not by my side.

I have chose them as my friends,'coz I know they are good,they are reliable.

But am I wrong?

Nobody will think of me,remember me,all the time.

They said I'm too good with them,they no need to do so.

Maybe I should trust them.

I'll treat them cool everytime when I feel suffer in my friendship.

It's because I want them to care for me.

I do something to MAKE them care for me.

And it just last for,maybe a day.

Then everything will back to normal.

Maybe I have treated you all too bad,so you all must treat me like this.

I HAVE PROBLEM,DID YOU ALL KNOW???!!!

曾经有个朋友说过：“朋友，是在你真正有问题的时候才出现的。”

那你在哪里啊？你们全部都不见了。认识我酱多年，你们不曾真正了解我的内心世界。

我很痛苦，你们懂吗？没有可能懂。

busy? or not?

She has blacklisted me. She's trying to avoid me. I can feel that. Or maybe it's just I think too much? I don't know. I won't know. Nothing I can do. I only can try to forget her. But it's too hard for me. Don't know why. We didn't chat in this whole holiday. She sent me a message last night. I can't sleep because of that message 'coz I've waited her message for so long. The end of her message was,"no need to reply". You know what I feel?

distracted......

Now,it should be the time for me to study very hard 'coz the STPM trial examination is just around the corner. But I don't think I can do that. Why? I can't concentrate.

I love the new background music of my blog now. It's an intermezzo of the movie,Secret. Hope you all will also like it.

Her ex is still inside her mind... Sometimes I also will think of her ex. Why? 'Coz I wanna do the same thing as she did. Is it funny? Maybe... But I don't think it is.

Secret

I think it's a nice movie that everyone should watch it.

Not Feeling Well

I'm not okay now. I've scared to posting at here 'coz I afraid that someone will read it and feel unhappy. So,what I've written at here,might not be the 100% of me. It makes me feel like,I can't even express the real me on my writings at here now. Couldn't blame anyone 'coz it's all my fault. I'm the person who worsen the situation.

Behaves badly on love. The name 'playboy' is going to stick on me,right? I think nobody will deny this. It's a fact. Have a bad record. Sometimes,I'll thinking of,I shouldn't be at here in Form 6. At least I won't even hate myself,hate everything that I did. I'm still a guy that love Huie Thing very much. I won't have those bad attitudes as what I have now. I'm still a normal guy. But now,it's totally different. Everything changed. I'm a bad guy in many people's mind. I can't return to the past. I've to walk through it. But the problem is,can I do that? Although I'm the one who hurt my ex,but I also feel that,I've already afraid about,love............

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It's quite a long time since I last posting at here. Many things have changed. I hope everyone will be fine soon. Nobody get hurt anymore. Maybe it's life. We must gone through many obstacles. I think most of us are putting more concentration on love in our life than any other things. Chemistry,spark,make up feelings,then love. We all like the feeling that to be loved by another person and also love the other person. We'll feel happy,delighted at that time. Most of us often put our beloved to be the no.1 person in our life. We already forget about our family and also friends. At that period of time,we even feel that we can't live
without our beloved,but not because of without our family.

I saw many people feel sad all the time just because his/her beloved break up with him/her. They became aimless in their life. They don't even know that at this time,they're actually hurting those persons that care about them. Their parents,sisters and brothers,friends,etc. Some of them that are not mature enough even make the decision to commit suicide. What a donkey. They didn't dare to face the reality,to face the truth. Go to hell just because of the only 1/3000000000. Don't you think it's funny? I don't think he/she is the only one that is worth for you to be loved since there're 2999999999 more boys/girls out there!
He/she leave you alone,he/she didn't appreciate you,but you did nothing wrong,then why you still wanna act like a stupid,to feel sad because of him/her? It's difficult for a person to let go a person that he/she really loves,but although it's tough,we must also do it well! Youlove him/her very much,you still have the strong feeling to him/her,but his/her feeling to you already became 0,already became past tense. At that time,there's nothing for you to do out of crying. He/she won't come back. Once he/she made the decision to break up with you,he won't even pity you anymore. You can't cry to him/her,tell your feeling to him/her. Nothing you can do to him/her. He/she is useless for you,but make sure,you don't make yourself to become useless. Don't give up everything just because of a HUMAN. There're still many chance out there.

What is considered as puppy love? 2 persons that not really love each other,but they're always together to do something like go for some outings together,hold each other's hand,and some even give out their first kiss. Most of our first love are also puppy love,but a few of them are true love. They can't forget every moment of it after the broke up. Sigh.


To be continued......