Sunday, April 15, 2007

Damn!

Sometimes really feel damn angry. What the hell is he thinking about? Damn. Feel like don't wanna do anything more. Just leave it for others to finish it! Why should I do all these things for nothing? NOBODY appreciate it! I know I'm nothing,everyone listen to him,follow his order,but can't you pay more attention on this project? Put more effort on it,okay? Said hate to do this project,but you also can't just leave it like that right? It's already started. You still have to done it nicely no matter how tough it is,right? Why can you stay back for your basketball session but you can't do this for your project? All these people make me feel that they're totally irresponsible.
Feel very tired now... Busy in many things... Pressure everywhere... Maybe... That's life.

同类

好无奈。。。烦恼一箩箩。。。今年是大考年,还是世界上数一数二的大考,压力真的非常大。这是我的前途,所以我必须很努力。感情事,非常复杂。对嘉雯的感觉,时多时少。说真的,她是个非常好的女生。我自问真的给不到她真正的幸福。对她的感觉,并不强烈。她并没有令到我有生命的推动力。试过跟她分手,但最后还是复合了。之后有觉得比以前更加喜欢她了,但这种感觉只维持了几天。试过要对她很好,但还是不成功。说分手,又怕伤害她,在一起,又好像在拖着她的时间。。。但我知道,前者一定比后者人道。
有时会回想起慧婷。真得很怀念那段,为爱付出,不顾一切的日子。这绝对不会发生在现在这段感情里头。除非,有奇迹。看回在那段时间所写的日记。。。只能叹息。
有一个秘密,是和嘉(征和—嘉雯的感情)的关键问题。我一直都不敢告诉她。从今年一月开学到现在,和嘉就一直被这个问题给考倒了。错,就错在我身上。我的心,出现了另一个她。感觉上我很花心,我的心,根本还没稳定下来。我有一种感觉,就是,如果我跟另一个她坠入爱河的话,那种,为爱付出,不顾一切的日子,一定会重来。对另一个她的感觉,不曾减退。但我敢肯定,在现在这个状况下,如果我跟另一个她表白的话,她不单指会拒绝我,而且一定还会排斥我。有时真得很渴望单身,因为还可以有很多选择的机会,除非已经找到了最爱。有心事,不能跟别的女生尽诉,因为她们都不敢碰一个“有妇之夫”。
“世界有时候孤单得很需要另一个同类”。
我觉得我找到了。但这两个同类,只能成为双方的过客。他们并不能结合